My experience, dark and light, is my resume

Since I was a little girl I've been attempting to manage stress and balance my nervous system. Unbeknownst to me, I was trying everything. I was unfortunately unsuccessful for a very long time.

For a large number of years I used alcohol, people and work in an attempt to ease and comfort myself through stress, anxiety and trauma. These things seemed to work, until they didn't of course. I will skip over the autobiography and simply say, eventually I hit an alcoholic rock bottom and shortly thereafter discovered the word codependent, and a number of years later, burned out badly.

In my quest for peace and serenity, somehow I had become a very codependent alcoholic who worked five jobs. How does that happen? Astonishingly, raising a child too. It's wild to me to think what became of me all because I so desperately wanted to feel safe and loved. It's that simple. As so many of us have said, I wish I knew then what I know now.

I certainly wish I had found Yoga earlier in life, and it also would have been therapeutic to release some of what I was carrying in Breathwork. I do however believe my experience in getting to where I am today, all of the experience dark and light, serves as my resume. I have lived experience in full and complete transformation, and I want to share it.

Today I have been sober for 8 years, life is great, my daughter is thriving, I can manage stress, my nervous system is balanced (medication is part of my story) and I have been actively studying many different aspects of Yoga for 12 years and Breathwork in the more recent handful of years. I still work quite a bit, but the things that keep me busy today are enjoyable and I am no longer doing them desperately.